Meghan tells Oprah she contemplated suicide and claims there were ‘concerns’ about Archie’s skin colour

Meghan and Harry’s tell-all interview with Oprah has aired in the US, with the Duchess of Sussex claiming there were “concerns” about baby Archie’s skin colour before he was born and saying she had suicidal thoughts during her time in the Royal Family.

American audiences were the first to see the two-hour OprahWith MeghanAnd Harry: A Primetime Special, in which the couple made a series of bombshell claims – including Harry saying Prince Charles had at one point stopped taking his calls, and alleging he was “trapped” in the royal system, “like the rest of my family”.

Meghan, Duchess of Sussex gives an interview to Oprah Winfrey
Image:Meghan spoke to Oprah on her own at first, with Harry joining later

The couple also discussed racism, with Harry saying it “hurt” that his family did not speak out against articles “with colonial undertones” written about his wife.

Meghan told Oprahshe married into the royals “naively, because I didn’t grow up knowing much about the Royal Family”.

Key points from the bombshell interview

• Meghan revealed she had suicidal thoughts and said: “I just didn’t want to be alive any more”

• The couple alleged a member of the Royal Family raised “concerns” about Archie’s skin colour before he was born

• Harry said Prince Charles stopped taking his calls when the couple left the UK

• He denied that he had “blindsided” the Queen with the news the couple were stepping down

• The duke claimed he had been “trapped” in the royal system – “like the rest of my family”

• Meghan denied reports she made Kate made her cry ahead of her wedding – claiming “the reverse happened”

• The couple revealed they are expecting a girl – and that they were married three days before their big ceremony

Speaking about her pregnancy with baby Archie, Meghan claimed the Royal Family did not want him to be a prince or offer him security.

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Asked why by Winfrey, she said there were “concerns and conversations about how dark his skin might be when he’s born”.

Winfrey asked if her son being “too brown” would be a problem, to which Meghan replied: “If that is the assumption you are making, that is a pretty safe one”.

Meghan and Harry on Oprah: All the key quotes

Meghan and Harry on Oprah: All the key quotes

However, she declined to say who raised the concerns, saying that would be “very damaging to them”.

She added: “That was relayed to me from Harry, those were conversations the family had with him, and I think it was really hard to be able to see those as compartmentalised conversations.”

Meghan also told Winfrey she struggled with her mental health due to the intense pressures of being in the Royal Family, and that she had suicidal thoughts. “I just didn’t want to be alive any more,” she said.

“And that was a very clear and real and frightening constant thought. And I remember, I remember how [Harry] just cradled me and I was… I went to the institution, and I said that I needed to go somewhere to get help. I said that I’ve never felt this way before and I need to go somewhere. And I was told that I couldn’t, that it wouldn’t be good for the institution.”

Harry and Meghan with Kate and William at Westminster Abbey in 2019
Image:Harry and Meghan with Kate and William at Westminster Abbey in 2019

The duchess was also asked about headlines written about her and the Duchess of Cambridge, including one story alleging Meghan made Kate cry.

“The reverse happened,” Meghan told Oprah, later clarifying that Kate had “really hurt my feelings” a few days before the wedding, but that she had apologised.

It was not a “confrontation” and it would not be “fair” to Kate to go into detail, she said, but added that it was “hard to get over” being blamed for something she did not do.

“Everyone in the institution knew that wasn’t true,” she continued, and she hoped Kate “would have wanted that to be corrected”, but added that “she is a good person”.

Asked if she thinks there was a separate standard for her and Kate, and if so why, Meghan said: “I don’t know why. I can see now what layers were at play there.

“And again they really seemed to want a narrative of a hero and a villain.”

The Duke and Duchess of Sussex. The photo was taken remotely by friend and photographer Misan Harriman.
Image:It’s a girl! The couple revealed the sex of their baby during the interview. Pic: Misan Harriman

Meghan, who is pregnant with her second child, spoke to Winfrey on her own at the beginning of the chat, with Harry joining for the second half – with the couple revealing together that they are having a girl.

Asked by Winfrey why they chose to step down from their roles as senior royals, Harry said: “Lack of support. And lack of understanding.”

Harry denied that he “blindsided” the Queenwith the news, saying he has “too much respect” for his grandmother, and said they have a good relationship.

However, he said that his father, Prince Charles, had “stopped taking my calls” at one point when he left the UK.

Asked about the “tipping point” which led to the couple leaving, Harry said he was “desperate”.

He continued: “I went to all the places which I thought I should go to, to ask for help – we both did, separately and together.”

Winfrey asked: “You left because you were asking for help, and didn’t get it?”

Harry replied: “Yeah. Basically. But we never left.” Meghan added: “We never left the family.”

Oprah Winfrey at Harry and Meghan's wedding in May 2018
Image:Winfrey attended the couple’s wedding in May 2018

The programme started with clips from the couple’s wedding, which the Duchess of Sussex described as an “out-of-body experience” – and revealed that the couple were married by the Archbishop of Canterbury three days before the formal ceremony.

Both said that Meghan felt welcomed initially, but things changed later on.

Harry told Winfrey he feels “really let down” by the Prince of Wales “because he’s been through something similar, he knows what pain feels like, [and] Archie’s his grandson.

“But at the same time – I will always love him – but there’s a lot of hurt that’s happened and I will continue to make it one of my priorities to try and heal that relationship.

“But they only know what they know, or what they’re told.”

Asked whether he would have stepped down from his role if not for Meghan, Harry said “no”.

He continued: “I myself was trapped. I didn’t see a way out. I was trapped but I didn’t know I was trapped.”

Winfrey pushed Harry to explain, to which he replied: “Trapped within the system, like the rest of my family are. My father and my brother, they are trapped. They don’t get to leave.

Harry said he has “huge compassion” for their circumstances. Asked by Winfrey what his mother, Diana, would say if she was alive, Harry said: “I think she would feel very angry with how this has panned out, and very sad.”

Speaking about his relationship with his brother, William, Harry said that at the moment it is “space”.

Anyone feeling emotionally distressed or suicidal can call Samaritans for help on 116 123 or email in the UK. In the US, call the Samaritans branch in your area or 1 (800) 273-TALK

Mark Gibson

Graduates in Northwestern University, Evanston, Illinois 1990. Move to Los Angeles California in 2004. Specialized in Internet journalism.

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